Sometimes I wonder what part of anxiety, fear, introversion or shyness I fit into, that’s if I deserve to fit into any of the above…
Let’s Personalize it a bit
Many a time and oft, I wonder if going into the light would burn my skin, or was I naturally crafted to shy off forever? Not that anyone cares to kill me when I leave the dark but then, I, without mistake, care too much about what people ‘who haven’t spared a minute of their time to ponder over me’ would think! Staying alone and believing to stay away, so I don’t hurt anyone invariably becomes my medicine!
It’s baseless how we worry so much about what everyone has got to say about our actions. We believe we can’t help but showcase how much we care since our minds have been deeply engraved with the fact that the world is too much for us and facing it will mean getting a death sentence by “The crowd looking deeply into our eyes”.
You will prolly read this and wonder “what the heck did she write?” But I want you, while you mull over what I’ve written to ponder over your numerous fears, the entity that holds you back, the attribute that tells you that your next action will meet a loophole ‘failure’ and lastly the characteristics that will prevent you from moving or say good bye to fear.
I will always apologize for the fact that I keep blaming introversion for everything! I guess you should too. It’s suffered so much from the ‘blame game’ you enjoy playing. That you are introverted should be a gift, only if you don’t force the term on the fact that you are too scared, too shy, to anxious or nervous to be seen among people or contribute in conversions! Kindly leave introversion out of your many ‘blame games’.
How about growing old and realizing that you have spent a better time of your live running and hiding?
I surely do not want an oldie me regretting over the mistakes the younger version made.
There is more than just enough time to stick to bravery, boldness and the fact that ‘We should not (always) care about what others say’. It’s so difficult! I know but that’s the only way to quit ranting about ‘those’ ugly attributes. We are obviously tired of living in a world we don’t take charge of but cry because we failed to.